Hope <3

“Hope is being able to see that there is light despite all of the darkness.” ~ Desmond Tutu

This is a picture I took one recent afternoon. I love how some of the sunbeams are rainbow. It’s the only one I took that showed up with a rainbow in it. It reminds me of hope and how there’s always little gems of goodness scattered throughout each day even if the day is full of darkness.

Here is the original picture:

And here is one with an effect to make the rainbow stand out.

And here is one without the rainbow:

But look at that little speck of gold that showed up on the branch! 😀 ❤

(this one isn’t mine)

Last night a deep kind of darkness washed over me for no specific reason. A violent, vicious darkness that got worse and worse. I became hopeless to the point of despair and filled with deep pain. I saw no hope for anything, no future, no reason for me to go on living. I very strongly considered ending it all. This happens now and again. I can be very happy all day then this. It can last minutes to months. The worst of this one is over now.

Last night I was looking through my pictures and saw these ones and remembered the rainbow and the speck of gold and the pink circles, the sunlight streaming through the bare tree branches and am reminded that there is hope as long as we live. Always little blessings & beauty even in the dark. And I decided to hold on at least a little bit longer.

This is me today:

Also! Look at this!

A powered vanilla cream donut and they put little Christmas colored sprinkles on the cream that dripped out through the donut! lol My sister said it’s stupid but I just had to have it when I saw it!

It’s the little simple things that often bring much joy! ❤

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If you are like me and struggle with depression and suicidal inclination or have any pain or problem, please keep holding on, I’m sending you my love. ❤ <33

"Don't lose hope. When the sun goes down, the stars come out."

Much love & light to you!

xoxo Kim ❤

P.s.

I clicked on the Santa link under the Google search box and this appeared! I love it! ;-D ❤