Archive | November 2016

I am… <3


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Recently I have been seeing blog posts and Instagram posts where people share a photo that says “I am…” then go onto reminding us all how very powerful our thoughts and words are and give examples of positive “I am” statements: I am creative, I am strong, I am intelligent…


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I have known for a long while that thoughts are powerful and that it’s wise to watch how we talk to\about our own selves whether it’s in our head or out loud.

I rarely feel negative or unpleasant emotions or feelings about myself and even more rarely do I speak\think insulting or abusive words about myself. So when I ever do feel or especially think an unpleasant word about myself, I feel the very toxic effect of it instantly. I’m used to only thinking positive and feeling positive things about me. For as long as I can remember, I had positive self esteem in general, often even when I am depressed. 

When I do think or feel unpleasant things about myself, it’s almost always just when I’m depressed and even then I’m careful how I think\speak about myself. When I was young and depressed I often abused myself with words and thoughts but not now. Sometimes still, usually when depressed, I let myself get consumed in feelings of worthlessness and pointlessness. 

Anyway, recently I was reminded how powerful words\thoughts are. I have been sick for a few days. Physically. My sinuses are very sensitive since I was little and I get sinus colds and allergies somewhat frequently, all throughout the year, not as badly as some people but very uncomfortable on some occasions and sometimes really painful. Usually not very bad though. But recently my sinuses have been hurting really badly and then my throat started to become sore. Also, I have been very fatigued. The fatigue has been really getting to me more than the sinus and throat pain. It has been distressing me emotionally. I’m almost never fatigued anymore.

When I do get fatigued for days, I fear that the Sickness has returned. The darkness. Since I was a little girl I struggled with Depression almost constantly for many years until May 2010 when I began to get better and only have recurring severe episodes, not constant depression anymore. There’s something different about constantly or nearly constantly being depressed and just having recurrent episodes. Both suck. But living in near constant darkness is worse than having episodes that come and go. I was depressed and suicidal in different depths and degrees for nearly fourteen years. And depressed even before that but I was too young to be suicidal back then. Very little kids can be suicidal but I wasn’t until I was thirteen years old. But even before that, I would become very depressed every Summer, so depressed I couldn’t get out of bed or off the sofa. My friends would knock for me to go out and play and I could hardly move. My mom would try to get me up but I wouldn’t, couldn’t. There was nothing physically wrong with me, at least not primarily. The fatigue was a result of the depression. This was way before depression became more well known and talked about.

Then my depression, suicidal inclination and contemplation, and fatigue became just the way I generally lived until May 2010 when I decided I can get myself better. I received professional help for years before that but that May in 2010 is the beginning to my true journey to recovery. I may never be fully recovered but I’m much, much better than I was all those years ago. It took so much work, strength, courage…but here I am!

Along with professional help, I practice meditation, appreciative living techniques, and strengthening my natural positive personality to make it more intentional, to counter the depression by being forcefully, ferociously positive. I have always been someone who is naturally optimistic but depression requires work to make that even more conscious and intentional.

So anyway, recently I feared my physical sickness may really be the Sickness. Depression really can feel so physical, like we are dying, not just dying inside, that too, but actually dying. It can feel like a common cold, influenza, just so physical. I have met people who have said depression hurts worse than painful, life threatening physical illnesses they once battled. And we can be depressed and not even realize! After all these years sometimes I still get depressed without realizing right away. Sometimes I think I’m getting a cold and it’s really depression coming on. Some occasions I think I’m just worthless and not depressed when really it’s depression provoking those thoughts. 

I kept thinking “I’m so sick, I’m so weak (physically), ” I am so fatigued!…” and each one of those thoughts, i felt taking even more energy out of me. The fatigue scared me. It was bone deep and so all consuming. I was reaching for a book on my bookshelf thinking “I am so sick” when suddenly I remembered that trend thing I keep seeing around with the “I am…” and how those two words are so powerful so whatever comes after them better be good.

And I thought to myself “I am…strong” “I am resilient” “I am optimistic” “I am beautiful”

And of course I’m still going to be sick and fatigued and whatever else because words and thoughts very likely won’t directly cure something but the point is to shift our focus to what is good, to place our awareness on our positive qualities and situations.


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This isn’t about denying or repressing or ignoring our unfortunate or unpleasant situations. That is unhealthy. But so is dwelling on them, feeding into them with too much of our attention.

Thinking positively generates positive, healing energy. And just makes it easier to cope with unpleasant things. So let’s list some positive “I am…” statements.

I am strong. 

I am powerful.

I am thankful. 

I am beautiful. 

I am wise.

I am creative. 

I am hopeful.

I am resilient. 

I am optimistic. 

I am fierce.

I am empowered. 

I am enough. 

I am confident.

I am compassionate. 

I am warmth.

I am tender.

I am beauty.

I am Light. 

I am sacred.

I am Love. 

😀 ❤

Luckily I am not depressed, it’s just a yucky cold. It’s not even a really bad cold, just unpleasant. But this cold gave me the opportunity to put positive thinking into practice and see incredible instant results and be reminded of a life lesson. And I want to share in hopes that it may inspire someone else. I am so thankful for all the people who have been posting the “I am…” things. We may not always realize just how deeply our posts on social media can touch others. Let’s keep sharing that positivity! 

Much love & light to you, always! 

😍 ❤ 😀

xoxo Kim ❤

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Absolutely beautiful photo and words. It seems to convey simplicity but also it’s philosophical, thought-provoking. I just love it! The colors and shadows are brilliant! This should win a photo contest! 😀 ❤

Hummings

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You must look to see.

But do you see where you look?

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Buddhist Prayer

The most basic Buddhist prayer is “may all beings find peace,” which expresses the positive mental state of loving kindness. It is not a prayer directed to some higher power outside the mediator, but the articulation of an attitude; at a deeper level, an aspiration; and at a still deeper level, a commitment.

—Gareth Sparham, “Prayer: Venerable Gareth Sparham

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Peace

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Closing Time😖😀❤😍

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“Closing time
Time for you to go out to the places you will be from.
Closing time
This room won’t be open ’til your brothers or your sisters come.
So gather up your jackets, and move it to the exits
I hope you have found a friend.” ~ Semisonic ❤

I wrote this October 30th and tried to publish it then but was having some difficulties (technical\practical difficulties not emotional ones even though it is quite sad! )

I’m a sad, sad girl today! Saddest girl in the whole world! Ok, not really. lol I’m not usually this dramatic! But I’m happy and sad. Today is my last day as a server\cashier at the job i worked at for over ten years! I knew I would be so sad when i heard we may be going out of business but I’m more sad than i could have imagined I would be. Heartbreaking!! ❤💔 ❤ I’m actually in a state of grief almost like when someone dies but nowhere near that bad. I’m shocked and feel disbelief and a bit of numbness. I knew for over a year that my boss was trying to sell the place but it’s still kind of a shock to have a significant change like this.  I can’t imagine not being here anymore after so long. And I worked so much in Spring & Summer,i felt like i lived here and practically ran the place myself when everyone was on vacation. I worked 10\11 hour shifts with no break days in a row. So many days I opened and closed the place myself. When I first began working here two of us worked each shift. That’s how it was for years. But one day one of the girls couldn’t come in so I worked myself even though it was super busy and my boss decided to have only one of us on each shift, after she saw I handled it well on my own, so she wouldn’t have to pay two of us. So mostly each shift only one worked unless we had to train a new employee. I love working with others but also love my own company. I  came to love my shifts alone, especially on slow, cold, rainy or snowy days. When I wasn’t working I would read my books and drink hot chocolate or tea or coffee. I still saw my coworkers a lot.

I worked so much here, more than any of the others because they all have other jobs too and I don’t. Also, im the only one who would work 11 hours a day.  I feel a great sense of loss but also like I’m not losing anything because the job and experience never had to be given to me in the first place. So i feel more that I gained than lost. It doesnt completely take away the sadness and grief but definitely helps it. I’m naturally more prone to seeing the positive and if i dont, i remind myself to focus on that.

I wasnt told until yesterday that I would lose my job! I heard people talking about it but my boss did not let me know and never said a word til yesterday that in two days I would be jobless! People are saying negative things about her for that but I can only see that for over ten years, she gave me a job and I am forever thankful.

Another thing that lessens the pain of this loss is, I loved every second of working here and never once took it for granted. People complained about the low pay but it’s better than no pay! And i loved the busy as well as slow days. Some rare occasions I definitely complained about something about work but even in the midst of that I felt gratitude for it all and felt more positive emotions for my job than unpleasant. I took so many pictures in here and shared stories and life lessons learned here, through the years. I have countless memories to always cherish. Even the things i disliked about my job I usually also loved more than disliked. For example, I often felt that I would prefer more regular hours like morning until late afternoon but i also loved the night shifts and not always having to wake up really early for work. Also, even sometimes when I felt overworked and exhausted, I also felt satisfied and productive working so much.

So my point is; there’s always pleasant and unpleasant and we can choose to focus more on what is good.

I also have come to learn that while it’s so great to have some big career helping people, it’s not the only way to help others. Even at a simple store job, (or no job) there are so many ways to touch lives for the better. I saw how grateful and touched people felt when I asked them if they want napkins or boxes to carry stuff or anything else to make things easier for them. Something as simple as that can show someone that we care to make something even just a little bit better or easier for the person. It helps in a practical way but also in a deeper way. People can feel the love we express even in the seemingly smallest ways. That’s the greatest lesson i learned. ❤

Even when I was depressed, grieving, or suffering a flareup of my chronic headache disorder, I made it a point to be friendly to customers even if I wasnt happy myself or in too much pain to think straight. And work almost always cheered me up! 😀

It was extremely rare for me to not feel like going into work and even on those occasions as soon as I got here, I felt happy to be here. So many days I was having so much fun I did not even realize it was time to leave. Some of my best days are here.

I havent been jobless since I was a nineteen year old college girl. It’s embarrassing. I dont judge people who choose not to or cannot work but i love to work and it feels strange and awkward not having a job. Having significantly less money is not going to be good but my worst issue is missing the place, the people, the experience. But all good things (and not good) must end! And I’m thankful for the experience in the first place.

I never planned to leave here unless I had to. I planned and still plan on having a more “real” job but I always wanted to still work here like maybe on the weekends or one day a week if my boss allowed it. Like I have said being a food server is a pleasant job that brings joy in ways other jobs dont. Even if they bring as much joy, it’s not the same.

But I also feel a sense of liberation. Whenever I applied for other jobs I would keep trying to work out how i can work here as well. I tried often to see how my schedules would be compatible. Also so many nights I wanted to do something, like go out but I couldn’t because I had to work at night. I missed quite a few things because of unusual hours. I still loved the hours but it also came with unfortunate things.

I loved when it was busy but I will love nights off that aren’t so demanding. And now I am completely free to look for another job. I have no restraints. For now, I’ll look for another store job since I have so much experience (over ten years!) then try to move onto a more “real” or “professional” (im not n never will be a professional but you get the picture, right?! 😀 ) job like maybe a technician in a hospital or health center or a position at a marketing company. I love marketing but do not want to start out with sales, knocking at people’s doors, which many marketing employers require! Also, I want to work with children with extra needs one day. 

And, now I can look more for a volunteer job as well! No job to hold me back! It’s hard finding a volunteer job at some places! They require all stuff like a paid job!

Here are some of my last pictures here:

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My friend who used to live next door and me used to call this stuff the Purple shit. It’s a pretty color though! It has a terrible afterscent. I couldn’t stand using it. If we were out of other cleaning stuff I had to use it. Yuck! I dreaded it! But now I’m going to miss it! Oh, purple shit, I’ll miss you! ❤

The cash register! I get angry at it sometimes for not functioning properly but I really will miss it! And seeing all the various kinds of money coming in n funny messages written on some of the bills. “My sweaty nuts touched this!” for example, is a message I saw years ago! lol

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I’m going to miss mopping here and cleaning the utensils. I’ll miss every crack in the floor and mark on the walls. I will miss the beauty of the shadows and reflections on the walls and floor and glass freezer tops at sundown. But i have lots of pictures! I will always miss & cherish the occasions when a beetle or ant or other kreepy krawlers would land on one of the counters or freezers or even on me! I have many pictures of those too! I’ll miss making myself chocolate milkshakes! We were allowed to eat\drink anything we wanted for free as long as it was our shift! 😍❤😀 And so much more I’ll miss and cherish forever.

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Usually when we think of missing something, we seem to think of people, food, “big” things but there’s so many little things we may overlook and miss that we may never realized we would cherish and miss.

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Years ago I broke one of these and I told my dad and he brought me one out of his work to take to mine. He works for a company that sells\fixes parts to things like machines and cars and stuff. 

The counterfeit detector pens. Sometimes we got to slacking with checking the money and brought in fake ones by accident. I have gotten angry phone calls unexpectedly about fake cash in the drawer! oopps! 😱

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Inventory! I loved writing lists and seeing my manager’s list of all the stuff we needed!

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I’ll even miss the notes I would sometimes find hanging up scolding us for something (not cleaning good, forgetting to stock something, leaving something out on the counter that should not have been left out…)

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And I will miss the people(and doggies!)! My coworkers, the customers, my boss, manager, and their family, having conversations with people about various things, helping people….I’ll miss it all but I’m very thankful for the work friendships I have found through the years. ❤😍😀

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I think this thing is at least twenty years old! See how the phone number doesn’t even have an area code in front. 😱 And that was still our phone number even after all these years. If you call it now, I won’t be there. 😦 Also, the place is called Scoops not just because it’s an ice cream store, even though that is a good name for an ice cream service, but because the original owner’s last name is Scoops. lol

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We still have most of the same stuff now. These prices are so low! Only $3.50 for a banana split! Now they’re $6.00! And just $1.50 for a small gelati?! Now they’re $4.50! 😀

And here is the last one of me at work:

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I shared this on Facebook with my experience n someone commented and wrote, simply, “sexy boobs.” lol I’m quite flattered and must say, I agree. But I just lost my job after ten years and that’s what someone says. It gave me a good giggle! 😍😀

I even got a couple hugs today! My friend, Chrissy at the bar my boss owns said she’ll miss me and hugged me goodbye! And my newer coworker came and hugged me goodbye and said she really liked working with me. aww ❤😍😀 I love how sad things often show us how much love is in the world. ❤

It’s raining tonight and thundering. It seems fitting for my last day ever. I always loved rainy nights at work. ❤ 

I tried to take pictures of every square inch of the place. Most of them arent pretty but they arent meant to be. Theyre just for me to always have. I can never forget this place and have so many habits ingrained into me that i picked up here. One, for example, is when someone is talking to me, even not at work, I often look to the right while talking because when a customer asks for a certain kind of ice cream before saying ok, I look to the freezer on my right to be sure we have it first even though there are other freezers, that one is closest to see and i carried the habit over into conversations outside work. And I reach for a refrigerator that isnt there. It hasnt been for years but once in a while I reach to open it to get milk. The habit is so ingrained. And once in a while I still reach for the dipwell that hasnt been in place for about nine or ten years. I dont need pictures to help me remember! But i love to have them!

This reminds me how very powerful habits we develop are and I’m inspired to maintain\develop positive ones.

It’s going to take some getting used to not being here now. The place is a part of me and always will be. There are always good things about each stage, age, phase of life we’re currently experiencing. Closing time reminds me to always appreciate where I am and what I have; I usually do anyway but reminders are great! And Im inspired to share with others and suggest we all cherish right now even if it seems like it’s not so great. Single or taken, jobless, dead-end job, stressful job, great job, stay at home mom or dad, new child or no child, in love or not, college student or graduate, wedding planning, just married, living at home with the family we grew up with, on our own… or whatever stage we are in now, let’s embrace it, cherish it, look for the goodness in it. Each season or stage of life has its struggles, challenges, blessings, beauty, heartache, positive aspects, difficulties, love, joy….and there’s a chance when it ends we’re going to miss it even if we never thought we could. There are less regrets and less sadness, more joy and beauty when we lose something or someone if we did not take it for granted while we had it. It’s easier to let go or move forward when we knew what we had while we had it. Let’s be mindful of the love & beauty here & now.  There is nothing more painful than losing something or someone  that we love but never stopped to appreciate while we had the chance. I’m so thankful I knew what a blessing my job was (and always will be) to me. I always knew. So saying goodbye is still sad but so much easier than it could have been.

The girls gave me a shot of strawberry tequilia to see me off. At first I refused because I don’t drink alcohol and am not attracted to it in any way but my boss owns the bar across the street and she and the others, her family, my coworkers who work at the bar\kitchen really wanted me to take a shot so I did after some pleading and pushing! They all drank one with me and toasted to me and the business. ❤

The flavor is good! It’s kind of like a strawberry milkshake but alcohol flavored. But I did not like the sedated feeling or “buzz” feeling it brought me. It was nothing terrible or that I couldn’t handle but it also wasn’t the most pleasing. However, I did like how when I swallowed it, the very instant it went down my throat, I felt it throughout my whole body; it traveled up to my head n down to my toes. It was very powerful. I was reminded of being alive and mindful of my existence and body. I’m thankful for the experience. ❤

I will be seeing them at the Christmas party next month! 😀😍❤

I got so many well wishes today! Just about every person i encountered today I told my sad news to and they were all so encouraging about it and told me better things are coming to me! I know it’s true! This is the end that will lead to a new beginning! ❤😍😀 And here are a few songs that resonate with me:

“Closing time
Open all the doors and let you out into the world
Closing time
Turn the lights up over every boy and every girl.
Closing time
One last call for alcohol so finish your whiskey or beer.
Closing time
You don’t have to go home but you can’t stay here.” (this song has always resonated with me in a deep way since I first heard it when I was very young. ❤ It gives me chills in a good way and tugs on my insides.)

Closing Time – semisonic – mobile

Closing Time – desktop

“You’re gonna miss this
You’re gonna want this back
You’re gonna wish these days hadn’t gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you’re gonna miss this”

You’re Gonna Miss This – Trace Adkins – mobile

You’re Gonna Miss This – desktop

“I’ve been walkin’ these streets so long
Singin’ the same old song
I know every crack in these dirty sidewalks of Broadway
Where hustle’s the name of the game
And nice guys get washed away like the snow and the rain
There’s been a load of compromisin’
On the road to my horizon
But I’m gonna be where the lights are shinin’ on me” ❤

Like a Rhinestone Cowboy – Glen Campbell – mobile

Like a Rhinestone Cowboy – desktop

I’m wishing you much love, light, and happness, always! ❤ ~hugs~

xoxo Kim

Jill 2016❤ {Support the little people}

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(this isn’t my photo I stole it off their page. lol)

“My Power to the People Plan creates deep system change, moving from the greed and exploitation of corporate capitalism to a human-centered economy that puts people, planet and peace over profit. It offers direct answers to the economic, social, and ecological crises brought on by both corporate political parties. And it empowers the American people to fix our broken political system and make real the promise of democracy. This plan will end unemployment and poverty; avert climate catastrophe; build a sustainable, just economy; and recognize the dignity and human rights of everyone in our society and our world. The power to create this new world is not in our hopes, it’s not in our dreams – it’s in our hands.”

http://www.jill2016.com/plan

Some people don’t like this but I’m not jumping on the bandwagon and voting for one of the two main presidential candidates for the upcoming U.S. election. I don’t have a problem with either one as a person and also do not know them extremely well; just what they reveal on the media. I see good and not so good in both of them. They are both strong and bold and intelligent. They don’t hold back out of fear of what others will say or think about them. I don’t agree with either of their views on everything but that’s ok. We don’t have to all agree. I don’t like how Mr. Donald Trump wants to keep people out of our country in the strict way he says he does but I believe he has good intentions. And I don’t like Ms. Hilary’s views\treatment\lack of support of our police officers. Or her support of what she claims is the right to partial birth abortion. 😱

But this doesn’t get me to have animosity against them or anyone who votes for them or supports them in any way. Just like with most people in general, I see pleasant and unpleasant in each of them and the unpleasant doesn’t take away the good. There’s probably not one politician I agree with on every single issue. And that’s ok! I don’t post online or speak in person a whole let about controversial things like I used to but that’s only because I just have little desire to now(im much more into posting about universal love stuff and cheery stuff now! 😀) , not because I don’t want confrontation or criticism. I don’t but if I really feel the desire to voice my views I will. And if I get a (verbal…hopefully 😱) ass kicking that sucks but it’s all good. 😍 I got brass balls ovaries.

Anyway, this post isn’t truly about the presidential candidates or my views on them; it’s about encouraging the “little” people who don’t even stand a chance. lol Even if we don’t vote for them we can still support their decision, even if just in our head, to take action and run for something even knowing they will be met with an overwhelming amount of rejection and probably even more so, just non validation or non acknowledgement. They are ignored. Completely. Did you even know Jill Stein is running for our president? There are many people who do, even in other countries. But it seems many people do not. And it’s not just people who don’t keep up with politics who don’t know; there are many political junkies who pay no mind to the “little people.” But these “little people” just keep right on going even when it seems no one hears them or sees them.

That is so inspiring! And they still succeed at things even if people don’t realize.

This post isn’t just about politicians but all of us. We may do great things and not receive much credit or gratitude. We may post pics, blog posts, statuses that get no “likes” or shares. I see\hear people lamenting about this very issue. Maybe we go above and beyond and get not an ounce of appreciation or even acknowledgement. But so what!? Receiving thanks and appreciation is great but not the true reason (in my opinion) for doing good things. It just great to plant seeds of love, kindness, positivity, in its own merit. And we may actually be inspiring or helping someone without knowing it! And we’re surely generating positive energy when we do good even if no one else in the world probably knows. ❤

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So my point is to promote encouragement to keep on keeping on even if we know we won’t succeed how we would like.

Here is a relevant post I posted to instagram recently:

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(the photo isnt mine just the post below it. If you want let’s be insta friends if you have an account! ❤😀😍)

Also, I’m not voting for the lesser known candidates just to vote for a candidate who isn’t a “big” one; their views just resonate with me more than these two. I love how Jill is for our Earth and environmental issues. ❤

Isn’t it embarrassing how the two main presidential candidates are at each other’s throats? They don’t have to do that just because they strongly disagree with each other! Why can’t they just kiss and make up? lol We can be friends with someone with opposing views and it doesn’t mean we’re weakening our own! I must admit though I find some of it amusing. 😉

There were people on my friends list on fb, who cannot stand Mr. Trump, who asked me if I’m against Donald Trump and I said no but I’m not voting for him either and they asked me to remove my account off their lists so we’re no longer friends. I felt like I was in 6th grade: “You’re NOT my friend anymore!” Usually when a person asks me to take my account off that person’s list I do but recently I chose not to. I’m not the one with the problem and they can extend their fingers and hit the remove friend or block button as well as I can. If they don’t then they’re stuck with me. Maybe they’ll have a change of heart and we can still be friends or maybe not. 😦 oh well! 🙂 I post such amazing things though; maybe they’ll come around (if they havent unfriended me already! If they already have theyre totally not gettin’ back on. I’m immature like that.) 

My mom said I’m wasting a vote and a couple other people said so too and it may be true but at least I’m voting for the one I want and not what others want or because I feel that I have to. Imagine if all the American people get together and vote for one of the “lesser” candidates and one of them wins! lol What a shock it would be! I have seen quite a few people writing that they would vote for Dr. Jill if she had a better chance of winning. Maybe if we all would she would have a chance of winning! But i see their point.

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Anyway, whoever you vote for or not voting at all, whatever your views are, whether you are very passionate or can’t care less, whatever you look like, whatever your religious views are, gender, ethnicity, gender identity, race, nationality, sexual orientation, mistakes made…I love you! I wish you happiness and inner peace, always, no matter what goes on outside. 😍

Much love & light to you, always! ❤

xoxo Kim 

For my bloggy friend, Eliza❤

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This post is dedicated to my friend, Eliza, at: https://elizawaters.com Please go check out her beautiful blog!

On Halloween, my mom, sister, and me visited this orchard place called “Greensgrow Farm” close to where I live. We visited once before in the Winter a few years ago. It was beautiful then and now! ❤😀😍

As soon as I stepped inside I thought of you, Eliza! And I saw this sign above and I know sometimes you post about how unfortunately some of your flowers and things have to go away until the next season that they bloom again. But your outer & inner beauty always stay through every season all year long! ❤

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“Consider a tree for a moment. As beautiful as trees are to look at, we don’t see what goes on underground – as they grow roots. Trees must develop deep roots in order to grow strong and produce their beauty. But we don’t see the roots. We just see and enjoy the beauty. In much the same way, what goes on inside of us is like the roots of a tree.”

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“Even if I knew that tomorrow the world would go to pieces, I would still plant my apple tree.”

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“If you look the right way, you can see that the whole world is a garden.”

 Let’s plant seeds of love this Fall & all year long! Smiles, hugs, genuine compliments, planting flowers and vegetables, feeding stray and wild animals, saving insects, random acts of kindness, helping those in need, encouraging others…are all ways to plant seeds of love. And there are so many more ways! ❤😀😍

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“May I become a protector for the protectorless,
A guide for those who travel on the road,
And, for those who wish to cross the water,
May I become a boat, a ship, a bridge.
May I become an island for those seeking dry land,
A lamp for those who need light, 
A place of rest for those who desire one,
And a servant for those needing service.” ~ Master Shantideva 

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“If we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly our whole life would change.”

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“Love is like a beautiful flower which I may not touch, but whose fragrance makes the garden a place of delight just the same.”

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“There are always flowers for those who want to see them.”

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“Love is the flower you’ve got to let grow.”

 

“She moves with love among the unloving; With peace and detachment among the hungry and the querulous.” ❤

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“Flowers are the music of the ground. From earth’s lips spoken without sound”

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“Cherish sunsets, wild creatures and wild places. Have a love affair with the wonder and beauty of the earth.”

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“Anyone who keeps the ability to see beauty never grows old.”

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It looks like the cute chickens who were running around pecked the pumpkins up! 😍❤😀 lol 

“Think of all the beauty still left around you and be happy.”

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“There is no definition of beauty, but when you can see someone’s spirit coming through, something unexplainable, that’s beautiful to me.”

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“For sentient beings, poor and destitute, May I become a treasure ever plentiful, And lie before them closely in their reach, A varied source of all that they might need.” ~ Shantideva ❤

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We saw this adorable pig named Milkshake and we wanted to take him home but he isn’t up for adoption! He was wagging his tail really fast when we talked to him and wouldn’t stop eating in the mud! And he was snorkeling! lol So adorable! He followed us as we walked while eating non stop. He’s on a strict diet and not allowed to have any treats! poor thing! lol But it’s for his own good. ❤😍😀

The lady who works at the place said he’s not very friendly and has a big personality! How cute!! 😍❤😀

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The small succulent plant is mine! ❤

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I’m supposed to water it just a bit every ten days. 😀

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I hope you like the pictures & the quotes! 😀

And please remember to go check out Eliza’s blog today!

https://elizawaters.com

It’s full of love and beauty. Thank you, Eliza, for sharing your beauty with the world! 😍

Much love & light, always,

xoxo Kim ❤

Happy Diwalis { Goodness & Love Prevail} <3

Goodness & light & love will always prevail as long as we keep our focus on the positive and keep inspiring others to do the same! Today I am in a much better place than three years ago on this very day. My strength & wisdom are evident in this post and I hope it inspires anyone in need.  Keep living and never stop searching for the love and goodness. 😍😀❤ xoxo Much love & light…Kim

A Dose of Inspiration

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Someone, somewhere is looking for exactly what you have to offer…

Today I was overcome with a very deep depression, so deep my body was nearly paralyzed. I felt so trapped and stuck. Nothing I could have done would have lifted it. It wasn’t an ordinary low mood or sadness. It was a heavy sickness that took me over.

I was at work and just couldn’t move. So sluggish and hopeless. But I had to move to tend to customers. I love tending to their needs but it’s extremely difficult and excruciating when I’m deeply depressed. I don’t care if they know I’m depressed but it’s not part of my job to spill my guts to every customer about my depression. And my depression puts me at risk for seeming unfriendly.   I am not unfriendly. 

So it’s hard trying to be cheerful when I’m just not feelin’ it. What…

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