“I had not loved enough. I’d been busy, busy, so busy, preparing for life, while life floated by me, quiet and swift as a regatta.“
I had another post planned for today but it’s not prepared yet so I’ll probably post it tomorrow!
Xoxo Kim ❤️
This is me in March 2020. I was super super happy (I’m happy in general when my depression isn’t flaring but sometimes I am in an especially joyful mood and was here 😁). You can see it all over my face! LoL
Anyway, here is my current list of Happy!
1.) My job! It’s very fulfilling and fun and joyful! I’m a pet nanny! 🐾😻🐶
2.) Iced green tea 🍵 matcha lattes! I love them and have been drinking them everyday. 💚
3.) My body/health. It’s beautiful and energetic and holds me well. It allows me to do everything I want to do and recovers so quickly. I rarely get sick and when I get cut, my cuts heal super quickly. When I contracted the plague in 2020, I never even knew it because I never got sick! (I did thoroughly lose my taste/smell for two months, thought I had nerve damage) I only found out donating blood! The Red Cross told me I have the antibodies. I have a wicked immune system. I’m not thankful for not getting sick then (I was out in public walking around not knowing, though did not go near anyone and always had a mask on) but just goes to show how great my body is.
4.) My photography/glitch art hobby – It brings me joy and I’m good at it!
5.) My online friends! ❤️ Sometimes online friends are better than the in person ones(not that I currently have in person friends but hope to soon!).
6.) Movies! I love horror and comedies and especially love falling asleep watching horror ones!
7.) Acts of kindness 💜
8.) Philadelphia – My true love 💙 I just love walking its streets all day & night. 🌆 🏙️
9.) Oldies music! ❤️ The main music I listen to!
10.) My ability to experience compassion and sadness for others no matter how old it gets. I keep seeing people seeing they are too numbed by the violence all around us to care anymore. Sometimes that happens to me when I am severely depressed and especially when also extremely overworked along with it. Depression can burn out all our emotions when it’s extremely severe (it’s nothing at all to do with being a bad or uncaring person, can happen to anyone) but in general I can experience compassion and empathy and sadness and happiness for others.
11.) The birdsong on Spring & Summer nights. I can hear it now! 💕 Beautiful!
12.) That beautiful tender loving feeling when a depressive episode or wave is gradually lifting. I have always said that it’s almost worth it to be so sick because the feeling of it lifting is so beautiful and amazing. And I don’t use the word “amazing” loosely. ❤️
I hope you are having a beautiful day or night wherever in the world you are and remember to look for the good even in the darkness. 🖤
Xoxo Kim ❤️💕
A Dose of Inspiration 