AI & glitch artwork created by me to go with this poem 🖤
Standing here alone In the shadows of a distant memory That still burns in me Like hot steel Branding the flesh of my existence Her name tattooed into my cells I can’t escape her touch Marked for life The grief Expands in me like an airbag in my chest Til there is no more space And I struggle for breath My ribcage threatening to break Under the pressure Like a starshower Crumbing out of the sky Hot celestial pieces Falling Upon anything unlucky enough To be in the way Burning flesh Setting fire to surface Bringing everything to ruin
She’s always one heartbeat away One step out of reach I remember her hair Falling to her shoulders Blowing in the wind As her tears fell softly Like silent raindrops in the night Her eyeliner running down her cheeks Like mudtracks in pure white snow Those tears that spoke a thousand words Whispering into the night A somber melody Almost inaudible But caressing All the deepest depths of me
I carry her in my bones a melancholy ache accompanying my every step Invisible like a phantom in the night that lurks at my side like a distorted shadow supposed to be mine But isn’t
I am consumed by the dark Overshadowed by pain Til there Is almost no trace of what I was Before her Smothered in the aftermath Of a hurricane Washed away in the turmoil With no anchor
I stand here in these shadows Under the glow of the moon My long hair blowing in the gentle evening breeze As my eyes search the night For her But she’s nowhere to be found
But I feel her in everything there is The city lights remind me of the twinkle in her eyes As they lit up with everything she loved The bookstores, the cafes, the buildings, they speak her name as I walk by Almost as if to taunt me with reminders of everything that will never be mine Dreams that danced upon my pulse as it raced through me, promises of a life that are now crumbled like flowers crushed beneath the soles of my shoes But leaving tantalizing hints of their perfume in every step I take
Our hearts beat in synch I breathe her air And her tears run down my cheeks with the gentle rain that kisses my skin With its somber soft touch, tasting the salt as it covers my red lipsticked lips and caresses the tip of my tongue
I remember her bright hazel eyes smiling Through thick rimmed glasses As she spoke about the last novel she read Full of heartache and love and redemption I watched her hair fall over her glasses As she absentmindedly brushed it back I remember the way she came alive Whenever it rained And the city looked like a watercolor Painting A kaleidoscopic disarray Of all the colors of the rainbow The way her camera couldn’t capture Enough pictures And that joy lives in me somewhere Like a bittersweet song Playing in my bones Running through my veins
And I am here now In this other life Where she doesn’t exist Worlds apart But somehow only One chaotic breath away Drowning in memories Lifetimes away Lost in the shadows Of a love That could never be
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Anyone else want to share your own poetry? You’re welcome in the comments! Or share a link to your poetry blog. I especially love dark poetry or sci fi/futuristic, mysterious…but any kind is welcome!
I hope you are having a beautiful day or night wherever in the world you are!
This is a poem I wrote around ten years ago. I recently edited it, kept it mostly the same. I decided to add a few creative lines and kept all the old ones. It’s inspired by my true experience. It’s called “Covet.” I have always loved poetic writings to read and write, particularly dark poetry. I’m not generally dark, just like when that aspect of life is expressed through artistic things. Most of my writings have been lost when phones crashed that I had it saved on, but fortunately some I still have, and this is one of the surviving ones. It was devastating losing everything. I fell into a month long depression when one of my phones broke years ago that I used for writing(similar thing happened recently too). I don’t write very frequently, just once in a while when inspiration hits.
I like this poem of mine. Every now & again, I open it and read it. It’s my favorite one of mine. And it makes so much sense to me, taking me back to my long ago, stirring up memories and emotions. I did not follow any writing/poetry rules or whatever. Just let the writing, imagery, symbolism, emotion… flow, inspired by my real life experience. I generally don’t explain any of my poetic writing for the most part. I just leave interpretation up to anyone who may read and leave a bit of mystery.
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Also, not trying to be shady. Lol There is just one line in this poem of mine that is inspired by or more accurately stolen (but inspired sounds better 🤣) out of a popular song. Yeah, I knocked off the Cars (at least I’m honest 😆). But the rest is all mine. 😆
Covet
I see you every night Somewhere in the dark, Distant places in my mind Lost in the crevices Of my brain, The dusty recesses That are rarely touched By anything else Your beauty defying all reason Like flowers blooming Through concrete In the dead of winter
The pain in your eyes Reflects in my own glare Swirling Like a whirlwind Of deep colors Clashing in a Midnight sky And I want to run to you
But I am not yours
There are so many things I want to say to you That I can never say Secrets to abandon In the thrill of your touch Cast off Into the warmth of your smile
But I am not yours
I reach out for you But you don’t reach back And I loathe you Because you are not mine But I love you just the same
Every mistake you have ever made Every flaw you torment yourself with The crinkles around your eyes The laughlines on your face Only intensify my sense of awe When I think of you
Your beauty deepens With each passing second As mine fades Into the nothingness Of my world And I am jealous
I want to tell you That you are the girl Who keeps me up at night The one who beckons me Unknowingly To the edge Of some madness Too vast, Too dark To explore The one who lifts me To the greatest pinnacle Of joy and love and hope The one who drops me As I plummet To the lowest depths Of my despair
My heart pounding As my mind races With all the things That would be so Perfect But will never be
I imagine us together Strolling around the city streets Late at night The cobblestone, the abandoned alleyways, the closed cafes, the buildings catching our eyes As we run and laugh Under the stars And the street lights And our fingers lace Together So perfectly Together Like delicate veins Linked together Into an indigo tapestry Wriggling like worms In mud After a heavy rainshower Giving life Where there Was once Nothing
Finding each other In the midst of Some confused, dark eternity That spans Across galaxies And worlds Time and space We’ll never know Where everything else falls to ruin But we stand whole Together, we are whole
And I see you now In that cold place Where I dwell Always, where I dwell Where small, jagged pieces of your reality Collide with my fantasy And dissolve
My stiletto heels Tapping up the dimly lit hallway To your bedroom As the floorboards creek In the middle of the night Echoing Through the gentle night air That flows in Through your opened window As the curtains blow Softly To the rhythm of the night
Like a lost voyeur I stand Watching Lingering, Like a ghost in the Night I drift Standing in your doorway Unseen Unheard Unknown
I see you In your bed Under a gentle,dim Flickering Fluorescent light That catches in Your eyes As they scan the Room Searching Searching For something That will never be found
You glance my way But your eyes don’t meet mine They see past me, through me As if I weren’t there As if I were specter in the night Blending in with the shadows That linger in the corners of the room, And in the darkest parts of your mind Where very little light finds its way in
Your eyes rest on an old fadedphotograph On your dresser A remnant of a long ago That now only lives In a place in your mind Reserved for memories That ache and weep To be brought back to life But cannot be Snippets of moments That weren’t tainted By the darkness of today And I watch you smile A somber, gentle smile That doesn’t reach your eyes
And I want to reach back Reach through the darkness And gather all those moments Into my arms Those moments where only Innocence was known Only light Only love Piece them back together Into a collage to be held And felt all over again Something tangible To be tenderly cradled in your arms Mold them into kaleidoscopic dreams Splashing color All over a world That is only black Wrap them up in a bow And hand them to you As my gift But it can never be
The soft scent of longing Reaches my nose Tickling my skin With the urge to Sneeze I hold back For fear of Being exposed And disintegrating Into the blackness of Night Where I’ll never find My way back to you
Satin sheets Cool Beneath Your bare, flawless flesh As I take you into My tender, loving embrace And wonder if you can feel my Touch My invisible arms around your Body My long hair as it softly flows Around you As your own wavy chestnut hair Falls To your shoulders Like waterfalls At night Cascading Glistening mountainsides Threatening to crumble Beneath the heaviness Of my yearning My pastel pink polished Fingernails Tenderly running Through the locks Of your hair As if to calm the storm That rages within
I watch you reach up And softly brush your fingers across the translucent red lipsticked kiss I leave on your cheek A hint of confusion In your eyes, A faint flicker of fleeting recognition An almost knowing look As your fingertips linger, lightly, on your cheek
And I feel you shudder As Your wineglass Suddenly Falls to the floor, The rim, streaked With your pink lipstick Rose wine Spilling Onto the white Carpet Like the atmosphere Itself Bleeding into the night Sounding like A constellation of stars Shattering Into a million Little pieces As you unknowingly pull out of my arms To reach for the glass And that ache in me Exacerbates With each Breath you take
I can feel you In your soft tears In your loneliness That I long to heal Those thick layers I try to peel back To set you free
As you journey through Those endless black tunnels That you think you travel alone But I am always with you And I want to run to you
But I am not yours
I am not yours
And never will be
But in life and in death I will forever be marked by you
A Dose of Inspiration 