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Hearts 4 Haley❀

Happy Birthday to & In loving memory of sweet Haley(a beautiful, kind, young woman who was unexpectedly taken by an uncommon genetic disorder no one knew she had). Her family has asked us all to acknowledge her today on her 21st birthday. ❀❀❀ Hereditary Hemorrhagic Telangiectasia (HHT) is a horrific disease that can end a life in a split second, without warning. Much love to Haley’s family & friends, xoxo Her life touches mine for the better even though I hardly knew her. When someone is that full of light & love, everyone is affected in a positive way, even in just the most brief encounter or even just hearing a story about the person. Her light still shines in this world. Let us remember to be kind today & always, to everyone we meet.πŸ’› #curehht #hearts4haley #hhtawareness #ilmo

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Love for allβ€πŸ§‘πŸ’›πŸ’šπŸ’™πŸ’œπŸ–€


β€œA purpose of human life, no matter who is controlling it, is to love whoever is around to be loved.”❀

Much love,

Xoxo Kim

Baby❀

I haven’t posted here in a while and decided to update. Here is a pic of my (somewhat) new baby, Ralphie! He came to live with us a couple months ago. He is a happy, playful boy and slobbers a lot & gives lots of kisses! He loves humans & animals.

Isn’t he just adorable?!❀❀❀

I would like to start posting more here again! My photo space is getting full. I’ll have to start paying to get more!

I hope you are having a beautiful day or night wherever in the world you are!πŸ’š

Xoxo KimπŸΎβ€πŸ’œ

Look for the good {gratitude}❀

One way to practice gratitude that is different than an ordinary gratitude list is to write a list of things that seem wrong, difficult, challenging, bad….then put a positive spin on them or make a conscious decision to see the good or create the good in them.
Here’s mine.

1.) My hemoglobin/iron level has been dropping consistently for the last six months for a reason unknown (Scary!) but I’m thankful it’s still at a safe level even though it’s considered to be at an anemic level now. It only drops slightly and only just now became anemic but it shouldn’t be dropping at all, consistently. This is an opportunity for me to get even healthier now, healthier diet, work on less stress factors, more consistent meditation, self care…This should bring it back up as long as there’s no underlying issue/illness making it drop. Hopefully it’s just that I need some dietary/lifestyle changes. I work/walk/exercise excessively, to extreme levels, and under-eat(My body weight is healthy though). I don’t have an eating disorder. And it’s not a conscious decision; it happened over time and is not something I wanted to happen. It just did. But now my body is demanding I rest and make healthier decisions in other ways. And that’s a good thing!

2.) Because of this I cannot donate blood and I’m a regular blood donor. Very disappointing. The Red Cross wont let me because it’s not safe for me to lose even a small amount of blood even though it’s safe for any recipient to get my blood, but at least I have the desire to help and try to. Sometimes that just has to be enough! And another good thing…they still let me have the free snacks!πŸ˜‚

3.) I have these rainshoes that cut my skin and are very uncomfortable. But so is walking around with soaked shoes & socks all day. So it’s either severe blisters or soaked, yucky shoes & socks when it rains. Both are sucky. But at least my body has the ability to heal the cuts. It’s a reminder to be thankful that it functions the way it should. I choose the soaked shoes n socks. Wet feet can dry very quickly while cuts take longer to heal and can potentially get infected. Also, I probably shouldnt be losing blood with my low hemoglobin thing going on. I tried different kinds of rainshoes and none work out.
4.) I have been struggling with very severe, absolutely debilitating health anxiety (which I never had before) for the last two months and this was before I found out about my hemoglobin issue so imagine my horror when I found this out!! That’s all I need is to hear this now! I have been convinced for two months that I’m about to die (In just a month I was convinced I had over ten different kinds of rare cancer and Google had me dead in less than a year – it may be in your best interest to stay off google if you are struggling with health anxiety! For example, I had some little thing I cant even remember now and put it in google just to check. What’s the first thing that comes up? Pancreatic cancer. Thoroughly freaked me out until Im in a near panic. I was never like this!!) and now this(low hemoglobin can be a result of cancer)! But my terrible anxiety inspired me to do something and I found a beautiful meditation that is so inspiring and full of love. So soothing, calming, peaceful, serene, healing. Stunning. Kuan Yin – Om Mani Padme Hum

It’s a short meditation just over six minutes long. We can put it on replay to meditate longer or just play it as soothing background music while doing other things.

These are a few things that are not good but either because of them I found something good or I was able to see or create the good in them. Try it! We can never go wrong with that! No matter how seemingly serious or trivial, list it and look for the positive aspect. This gets our mind into the habit of being thankful or deepens our gratitude if we’re already frequently grateful. It can be uplifting to list good things but may be helpful in another way to list “bad” things then the good in those bad things.

I hope you are having a beautiful day or night wherever in the world you are! Hugs to you if you are struggling with health anxiety or any health issues. Meditation really helps me, even just a few minutes of conscious breathing in the morning and/or at night is powerful.❀

Much love, light, & inner peace,

Kim

For anyone in need of some cheerβ€πŸ’›πŸΎ

This is for anyone struggling in any way today whether it’s something seemingly minor like a common cold, hectic day at work, bad mood…or something that may seem more serious like depression, grief, anxiety, health issues…two young, happy, healthy bulldogs!!

They aren’t mine; I’m their nanny! Any pets’ pics I post, I have permission!

Today, my world crumbled on top of me when my boss called me to tell me not one but TWO of my furbabies are dead today. I am shattered. Losing them is like losing my own. I don’t know what to do with myself. The two dogs who died were(are) a significant part of me like my own. It’s definitely ultimately the loss of their families but being a pet(or human kid) nanny, we come to love them like our own. This is very heavy pain. I always knew this day would come but can’t believe it’s actually today. One(two) of my worst nightmares has come true. Today.

My love goes out to the families. Both losses are unexpected. The one furbaby had cancer and was old but he was doing well then took a turn for the worst like out of nowhere. The other baby was not quite as old and not sick at all and no one knows what happened. He just got sick out of nowhere. I took care of both babies for over two years and this is the part of the job that sucks. I fed them, walked them, slept in bed with them, played with them, dried them off after the rain or snow… Like I have said before, this work comes with immense love but also immense heartache.β€πŸ’”β€πŸΎ

I lost two of my own dogs to death in October, one expectedly & one unexpectedly, and it’s challenging to lose two so close together like now. I can’t grieve for both together because they are two separate beings and two separate relations to them. And grief is so all encompassing and needs all the attention but I can’t give it the attention it needs because there’s two at once to grieve for. The grief for each one doesn’t blend together. It stays separate. And both need my attention but it’s physically difficult to do that. Now I’m just numb.

It’s different with love. I can love both separately, easily. They both had very loving furever homes and will always be loved.

Anyway, the babies here are still very much alive and here to brighten your day as they brighten mine! They are sweet and loving and snuggly and can be kind of naughty! The big boy is about four years old and the little girl is ten weeks! She was just adopted to be his lil sis! They look so much alike! She’s like his lil mini me! They get along so well! But of course, just like any big brother, he can get a bit sad & jealous when she gets attention.

I make sure to give both all the love!

Since I’m absolutely shattered today my first thought is to try to bring some love to someone else so here are these sweet lil babies!

Much love & light…and hugs to you!❀

Xoxo Kim

Small boatπŸ’™

“Dear God, be good to me;

The sea is so wide,

And my boat is so small.”❀

I came across this beautiful prayer and it resonates with me in a deep way even though I am not someone who believes in a creator of the uni-verse or that the uni-verse has a consciousness.

It’s so true about the “sea,” which I view as symbolic of life or the world, being so wide or vast or large, and our “boat,” a symbol of our body or individual life, being so small. We are all susceptible to fear, illness, misfortune…and are all so small next to everything there is. So why not be good to one another? Underneath everything, we are all the same. Financially rich or poor, healthy or not, impressive job or none at all, no matter our skin color, physical appearance, ethnicity, nationality, sexual orientation, gender, gender identity, intelligence level, education, political or religious views…we all can experience joy, pain, pleasure, happiness, fear, love, loss, illness, misfortune, success….we’re all so “small” in this great big life so let’s all be good to every living being we encounter! Let’s be compassionate, loving, helpful, encouraging, comforting…None of us are immune to pain/suffering and we all gravitate towards relief, joy, happiness, pleasure…No matter how much we have it together, we can all be shaken by something, be thrown into unknown territory, experience things we are fearful of and not accustomed to. It is so helpful to encounter someone who is loving and builds us up. How about being that someone for others? We’re all in our own small boat in a vast sea.

Much love & light,

Xoxo Kim❀