I am struggling today with a severe tmjd flare up. Tmjd is my chronic, currently incurable facial pain disorder. I have pain which is mild to moderate to unbearably severe and beyond.
There’s really no effective treatments other than home remedies.Β Β My current flare up is bad but not as bad as it sometimes is. It’s moderate bordering on severe. But not yet to the point when I would scream at the top of my lungs for hours through the night.
I woke up while it was still dark out in excruciating pain.Β Β So what better circumstance to write a gratitude list?!
I want to strengthen my habit of associating my pain with gratitude & joy. It hurts. So bad. So I will think of & list & dwell on all of my wonderful blessings.
1.) beautiful uplifting quotes
2.) I have friends & family & people I know.
3.) hope
4.) I have a job
5.) my beautiful senses & body & ability
6.) this blog
7.) this Fall – like evening
8.) Pumpkin Spice coffee
9.) lovely music
10.) adorable animals
11.) my positive attitude
12.) my ability to feel pain
13.) The fact that I am loving & ccompassionate for people whether I know them or not
14.) The fact that I filled out an application recently for job/training for peer specialist /counseling
15.) The stars & moon above me.
So here is my brief list. There’s so much more I couldn’t possibly list it all.
I’m too blessed to be able to list all my blessings. Lol. ;-D
I hope you, too, are feeling blessed. My heart goes out to all of you struggling with chronic pain and/or sickness. My heart breaks to think of it and how so many people have pain worse than and more frequent than mine. I wish I could take it away.
Much love & healing to you. May we find strength, hope, healing, & comfort in our pain & darkness.
Xox0 Kim
P.s. Always remember, “When you’re going through Hell, keep on going….”