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In loving memory of sweet Boo, boo❀🐾

How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.”❀

This is Boo. I was his nanny for two years. I just received heartbreaking news that he died. He was very sick and thankfully very old so he lived a long life for a kitty. His mommy & daddy gave him the best, loving furever home a kitty can have, along with his brother, a doggy.

He was the sweetest kitty, so loving and gentle. He never bit or scratched me when I would give him his medication in a syringe even though he did not like it at all. He loved treats and pets and kisses and would purr & meow happily when I visited.

I used to not handle grief & loss well. I used to view the loss of a human or animal I knew as something insurmountable, something I couldn’t possibly overcome. Often when someone would die, I wanted to die too, to stop the pain. Sometimes, I still have fleeting moments like that. To me, it’s just as devastating to lose an animal as to lose a human, although I have much more experience with losing animals and have felt it to be less traumatic than losing a human.

I have learned to see loss as a “side effect” or “byproduct” of being “given” the beautiful gift of someone to love so deeply. Instead of focusing on the loss part, I focus on the “given” part. I did not have to be “given” this pet or person in the first place. Instead of seeing it as something being taken away, I see the gift of what I got to have and hold so close.

Most of my pain when someone dies is not for me but for the one whose life was taken. But I see it the same way, life is a gift and that human or animal got to experience it even if just for a short while. Boo was happy and so well loved and always will be loved. Even though his life has ended, what matters is that he lived.

It was & is so devastating to receive the news about my sweet Boo boo but I’m so thankful I got to know and love him for the two years I did and my love for him will continue as long as I live.

His mommy & daddy wrote me a message and said they are thankful he had a nanny who loves him like my own.

This is the worst part of my job, having to say goodbye. Losing a furry client can be like losing my own. What is the difference? I come to know them and love them and take care of them. Sometimes I even have them overnight and sleep in bed with them, falling asleep with them at night and waking up with them in the morning, like living with them.

Sometimes the pain of losing them is or seems unbearable. And because there are so many of all different ages, sometimes we lose a couple so close together and I wonder what I got myself into taking a job like this.

Animals are so fragile and have naturally short lifespans so I don’t expect to have them around as long as I expect to have humans around (and I shouldn’t even really expect it of humans). In this way, it makes it not quite as traumatic or stressful as a human I know dying but it doesn’t lessen the pain of my loss either. Losing a pet is still like being gutted.

I’m so thankful not only that I get to love the furbabies I take care of but get to love their humans as well. People are always so very thankful to know that while they are away, their furkids are being loved & cared for so well. Even with the pain of loss, it is very worth it.

I knew Boo wasn’t doing very well. I always give the furbabies kisses goodbye but on my last day with Boo, I gave him one last extra kiss goodbye. I did not truly believe it would be the last day I saw him. I’m so thankful for that last kiss.

My heart goes out to Boo’s family.❀

My love goes out to all grieving the loss of a pet.❀ They are our family, our furever loves and not everyone understands our love for them and the profound pain of our loss when they must leave us.🐾❀

Much love,

Kim

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Snow Day!!!β˜ƒοΈβ„β›„πŸΎ

(Best friends❀)

Today is a snow day here in Philadelphia! What a gift to experience all this cold, white wet stuff! 😍😁 And to have a job where I get to be out in it all day & night! Yippee!! β„β˜ƒοΈβ›„β˜”πŸŒ‚πŸΎπŸΎπŸΎ

Here are some videos & pictures of my day here in Philadelphia in the midst of a sweet mini snow blizzard! These are my work babies you see in the videos/pictures. I’m a pet nanny. ❀ I love my furballs!😻

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Lol Blurry but look at that face!😍

This beautiful girl is a senior pet but has the spirit of a puppy! Unstoppable! She gets younger & younger!πŸ’œ

Pawprints on my heart🐾❀

Looks beautiful blowing in the gentle wind. Soothing & peaceful.

Tell me this isn’t the absolute cutest face you ever saw in the history of ever!!😍😍😍 I love to kiss this adorable face(and paws!)!

All of these pictures & videos, I took today. Perfect day!! β›„β˜ƒοΈβ„β€πŸ˜

Unfortunately, it’s not perfect for everyone though. There were lots & lots & lots of accidents all around the city. Some school children did not get home til after 6:00pm because school busses got stuck. Poor things. I did not hear of any fatalities and desperately hope there were none. Lots of inconveniences though. My love goes out to all having a not so perfect day for any reason. ❀ It doesn’t help anyone much but in the midst of my good fortune, I stop to think of those experiencing not good things. ❀❀❀

I hope you are having a beautiful day or night wherever in the world you are! πŸ’›

Xoxo Kim

Joy & Pain β€β€πŸ’”❀

This isn’t my good news but someone else’s! I want to share because I’m so happy & thankful even though it isn’t to do with me or anyone close to me. A girl I went to school with when we were kids, her dad is friend’s with my dad and her mom was very sick recently. She had cancer and things were not looking good. She received her last treatment last month or the one before and was just tested again and the disease is completely gone!! So amazing! I’m flooded with relief and overwhelmed in gratitude. She was so sick and in pain and is now completely better!

Also, her daughter just had a baby so now they have a new addition to celebrate with. I don’t know them well but we are friends on social media and once in a while I see her posts.

My sweet eleven year old pitbull girl died a couple weeks ago, unexpectedly and it’s devastating & shattering and the house feels so dead and empty even though I have other pets. She was so big and had a big personality. We adopted her over nine years ago. The lack of her presence seems unbearable. I never experienced worse pain. I would have taken her place if I could so that she can go on living her happy life. But she was a good age for a dog, especially a large one, to live to. I knew the day would eventually come, just not this soon. β€πŸ’”β€

(My beautiful baby, Isis Summerjo ❀)

It’s good to read happy news in the midst of my grief. πŸ’ž

The world is full of joy & pain, negativity & positivity, laughter & tears, light & darkness, good & bad, hatred & love….and we can choose which to focus on the most. I choose the light, the happy, the positive, the love!

My love goes out to everyone in your happy situation or devastating situation. In your goodness, I celebrate with you, even if just in spirit, and in your sadness, I embrace you. β€πŸ’—

Much love & light,

Xoxo

Kim

Best News ever!!!❀ (#redcrossontheway)

I just received THE BEST news in the whole world!!!!!! ❀❀❀

I would love to encourage anyone who is able to, to donate blood. One donation can save up to three lives and in the U.S., we are very much in need.

Sometimes when we donate blood to the Red Cross, they tell us exactly where it goes so we can see it’s truly helping someone.

Some reasons someone may need blood transfusions: injury(accidents, massacres…), mothers during childbirth if there are complications, illness, chemotherapy, surgeries

We can donate one unit every 56 days. We lose a lot of iron so be sure to eat lots of iron rich food or take iron pills!

It’s very safe (every single needle is new then thrown away after use) and the whole process (signing in, answering questions, physical checkup, giving blood, recovering, snacks…) takes about one hour.

It is possible to feel faint, sick, lightheaded or actually pass out after donation but not likely. It does hurt when the needle goes in and the hemoglobin test hurts(they stick the finger with some sharp thing lol and check the blood to make sure it’s healthy enough). But only for a few seconds and the pain is worth it!

I have B-negative blood.❀😍

My love goes out to the person receiving my blood(or what used to be my blood!). I’m so thankful my blood (and all blood that is donated) was available when someone needed it. Xoxo❀

Red Cross❀

Some tags for Instagram:
#love #universallove #redcrossontheway #givelife #itsinyoutogive #donatelife #donateblood #americanredcross #giveyourselfaway #belove #onelove #lovealways #savealife #savelives #giveblood #bneg #bnegative #universalcompassion #kindness #actsofkindness #empathy #blooddonor #beahero #bekind #sharingiscaring #lovevibrations #vibratehigher

Much love & light,

Xoxo Kim

Happy Tara Day!πŸ’šβ™‘

(Photo not mine)

Happy Tara Day!!!πŸ’šβ™‘

Tara is a female Buddha. She is the embodiment or symbol of love, longevity, health…Every 8th day of the month is Tara day!

Her mantra:

Om tare tuttare ture soha
Om Tare Tuttare Ture Mama Ayuh Punya JΓ±ana Pustim Kuru Svaha

Some praises:

“Homage to the blissful, virtuous, peaceful one
Object of practice, nirvana’s peace
Perfectly endowed with SOHA andOM
Overcoming all the great evils.”

“She of the face like the full moons of autumn
that blazes the light of the stars in their thousands.”

“On her brow she wears radiant joy like a tiara
charming demons and gods
with her laugh of Tutara.”

“She can summon the guards of this world of desire.
With wrathful expression, when Hung! does she utter,
she liberates everyone, no more to suffering.”

(When it says “wrathful,” it’s referring to her wrath against things like delusions, ignorance, anger, fear, difficult states of mind…not wrath against any living beings. Tara is love.❀)

Some tags I put on instagram before:

#tara #taraday #femalebuddha #girlpower #love #universallove #universalcompassion #compassion #unconditionallove #peace #joy #happiness #wisdom #inspiration #holymother #commonmother #beauty #21praises #conquer #riseabove #keepgoing #sheisbeautiful

I hope you are having a beautiful day or night wherever in the world you are!

Xoxo Kim❀

Summer Luvin’πŸ˜πŸŒ»πŸƒπŸŒžβ˜€οΈπŸ₯€

Southern Nights – Glen Campbell

Southern skies
Have you ever noticed Southern skies?
Its precious beauty lies just beyond the eye
It goes running through your soul
Like the stories told of old

Old man, he and his dog
They walk the old land
Every flower touched his cold hand
As he slowly walked by
Weeping willows would cry for joy, joy
Feels so good
Feels so good, it’s frightening

I have been more happy & thankful than usual this year for Summer! All four seasons are beautiful and I love to stop & appreciate the beauty of each one. But I must admit that often during Summer, I find myself dreaming of Fall & Winter wanting it to hurry up and get here. This year though, I havent had those thoughts. Maybe I’m getting better with my mindfulness lifestyle or maybe I’m just loving Summer more. Or maybe a lil bit of both?! πŸ¦‹πŸŒπŸœπŸπŸžπŸ•·πŸŒΈπŸŒ»πŸŒžβ˜€οΈ

Anyway, I have been really feelin’ those Summer vibes & loving it! I’m not waiting for Summer to be over this year though I won’t mind when it is. Every season is lovely and each one brings out the beauty of the others more. Living in a place where all four are different, is a gift!

Also, I havent been on any fun vacations this Summer and very likely, I wont be. I have never been the biggest fan of going on vacations but wouldnt mind going on one. I dont have money usually and no one to go with. A girl can go on vacation alone and still have fun but I’m an extrovert and prefer doing things like that with others. I love my own company but still love the idea of hanging out with people.

My point is that we don’t need vacations or even staycations with bbqs and friend/family activities(though that is amazing!!) to channel those summer vibes and make some of our best memories ever!

I’m just soaking up the sunshine with my dogs (both my own and those im a nanny for) and loving the beauty all around me! I love that it’s July and even during the scortching heatwaves where it’s all humid, sticky, and disgusting, I love it! I walk all around the city (not in these shoes!) and bask in all the beauty it has to offer me.

When I dream of the future, I see me simply sitting by the Riverside with an iced latte(probably a mocha one!) and a book in my hand, preferably a Buddha book! And it thrills me!

I see posts on social media, often posted by moms of young children, about people feeling unhappy or low about the fact that their friends and others are doing amazing things like going to beaches and waterparks and other summery places to have fun while theyre at home doing nothing of that sort.

Hugs to anyone who feels this way!

Let’s remember we dont need extravagant things to be happy! We can be happy in our own back yard or living room or front porch. Some of my most cherished memories and best days are simple, uneventful ones with just myself, a cup of tea, and a thrilling book or movie!

Best Days ❀ (An old blog post of mine about how any ole day can be the absolute best)

So here is a reminder to make the best of where we are now whether it’s the best season (in nature or in life) or a not so pleasant one to us. We are HERE! Let’s love it & bloom where we’re planted. This is my baby right here. She always remembers to stop and appreciate the simple joys of life like smelling the flowers and rolling around in the grass and snow. She was a shelter dog for a long while then she found the perfect loving furever home with her sweet mommies! I am her nanny!😍 Best job ever!!

There is an abundance of beauty & joy all around, right here, right now.

Here are just some of the pictures I have that capture the Summer luvin’ in each day!❀

Much love & light to you,

Xoxo Kim

My dog, Boobie❀

My dog, Boobie, five years ago today!! Tomorrow will be the second anniversary of her death. She was an old girl. While I am sad & grieving, I know the most important thing is that she lived. She had a loving furever home with my family for nearly 14 years. She even has two puppies who my family kept! A boy & a girl who are almost four years old(this month!). Every year on mother’s day, Boobie’s birthday, and the anniversary that she came to live with us, we buy her puppies a special treat to honor her. We used to buy her special gifts and now it’s a gift to be able to celebrate her by giving her pups something extra! How sweet! We also have Boobie’s baby daddy. Lol He’s a little pomeranian and so cute! What a sweet little family.

“You can shed tears that she is gone
or you can smile because she has lived.

You can close your eyes and pray that she’ll come back
or you can open your eyes and see all she’s left.

Your heart can be empty because you can’t see her
or you can be full of the love you shared.

You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember her and only that she’s gone
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.

You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back
or you can do what she’d want:
smile, open your eyes, love, and go on.”❀

~Hugs~

Much love & light, always,

Xoxo Kim