Valerie❤

(Valerie 💛)

So cool, she was like
Jazz on a summer’s day
Music, high and sweet
Then she just blew away
Now she can’t be that warm
With the wind in her arms
Valerie, call on me
Call on me, Valerie

Valerie – Steve Winwood

Recently, one of my social media friends, Valerie, died by suicide. Isn’t this so absolutely terrible?!?! She was born in August 1965 & died in August 2018. I did not know her in person or talk to her much on social media or know her well but can see she was a sweet person with a pure heart. The news about her death is like being stabbed in the gut, especially because it seems so senseless like it did not have to happen. Valerie was like me, very open & accepting and added/accepted everyone as social media friends. Her life philosophy, loving & including everyone, resonates with me deeply. I can even call her one of my soul sisters as our energy/vibration has been on the same wavelength.

Valerie loved coffee, music, people, and animals.

I always wished I had her name because I love the song by Steve Winwood! Recently, before she died, I was in Rite Aid and got a bottle of soda and chose the one with her name and thought of her.

She posted a lot of sweet, beautiful, and inspiring messages and also a bunch of (very liberal) political rants. I do not agree with all that she shared or the way she shared some of it (sometimes sarcastic) but a lot of her posts resonate with me. The reason I am sharing here that I did not always agree with her is as a reminder that we can disagree with someone but still love that person and still be friends. This was also her philosophy of life so I want to share it to honor her.

(She shared this)

Love songs fill the night
But they don’t tell it all
Not how lovers cry out
Just like they’re dying
Her cries hang there, in time,
Somewhere, someday,
Some good wind
May blow her back to me
Some night I may hear
Her like she used to be
No it can’t be that warm
With the wind in her arms
Valerie, call on me
Call on me, Valerie

Here are just a few posts on Valerie’s facebook account, most of it shared by her and a couple she is tagged in by others and liked:

(This makes me laugh hysterically 😂🤣)

(That’s Valerie’s writing under the pic)

(I wish Valerie would have remembered this when she made that ultimate choice out of fear & pain 💔)

(I dont care if people dont repost this. I dont repost these things that demand us to to repost or try to make us seem cold and non-caring. Im only posting this here to show Valerie’s kind heart.)

This is a small thing I am doing to keep Valerie’s lovelight going after her death.

She was a strong person but also tender and sensitive in a way. She wanted to be loved, noticed, called beautiful…

She was open about her depression and struggle and some of these posts show what it was like for her. She was clearly a strong person who kept winning these battles in her war of depression but one moment she chose to give into that despair and now her war is over but so is everything else about her. All of her interests, memories, activities each day, her voice, her smile, any new acts of kindness she would have performed, any chance of healing, all of her ways and everything that made her her…..all gone forever.

I know it felt like it then but it wasn’t worth it to end it all just to end that horrible pain. The world needs MORE like Valerie and now she just made it so there’s one less.

So I’m doing my part to continue her light & lavish her love onto others.

Sweet Valerie.

We can see by all these messages she believed in that she was very wise but she still made the choice to take her own life. This is because all it takes is a split second to forget all that wisdom and beauty and give into the darkness. But deep within, she still held that wisdom. We all do. Please let’s remember to hold onto what we know even when it feels impossible to hold on. I have no question of “why” like many people do. I know why. I completely understand why a person would take her own life. It makes complete sense to me but it’s not a good thing to do. She killed everything she was all just to end her pain.

Like I said, Valerie and me weren’t close. I hardly knew her. I hope all the love/healing thoughts will be for her close family & friends first. My love goes out to them and also to everyone else affected by this tragic loss, including her social media friends. What heartbreak.

She struggled hard but all she wanted was others to be happy and to take away their pain. 💔❤

I’m so thankful for the opportunity to share her love here. I hope it will inspire others like she wanted. Valerie was a beautiful soul inside & out.

If I could have taken away her pain, even if I had to bear it myself, I would have.❤💗

To anyone struggling like Valerie was or anyone grieving, I love you!! Please keep going. ❤ ~Hugs~

Much love,

Xoxo Kim

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Happy Tara Day!💚♡

(Photo not mine)

Happy Tara Day!!!💚♡

Tara is a female Buddha. She is the embodiment or symbol of love, longevity, health…Every 8th day of the month is Tara day!

Her mantra:

Om tare tuttare ture soha
Om Tare Tuttare Ture Mama Ayuh Punya Jñana Pustim Kuru Svaha

Some praises:

“Homage to the blissful, virtuous, peaceful one
Object of practice, nirvana’s peace
Perfectly endowed with SOHA andOM
Overcoming all the great evils.”

“She of the face like the full moons of autumn
that blazes the light of the stars in their thousands.”

“On her brow she wears radiant joy like a tiara
charming demons and gods
with her laugh of Tutara.”

“She can summon the guards of this world of desire.
With wrathful expression, when Hung! does she utter,
she liberates everyone, no more to suffering.”

(When it says “wrathful,” it’s referring to her wrath against things like delusions, ignorance, anger, fear, difficult states of mind…not wrath against any living beings. Tara is love.❤)

Some tags I put on instagram before:

#tara #taraday #femalebuddha #girlpower #love #universallove #universalcompassion #compassion #unconditionallove #peace #joy #happiness #wisdom #inspiration #holymother #commonmother #beauty #21praises #conquer #riseabove #keepgoing #sheisbeautiful

I hope you are having a beautiful day or night wherever in the world you are!

Xoxo Kim❤

Summer Luvin’😍🌻🍃🌞☀️🥀

Southern Nights – Glen Campbell

Southern skies
Have you ever noticed Southern skies?
Its precious beauty lies just beyond the eye
It goes running through your soul
Like the stories told of old

Old man, he and his dog
They walk the old land
Every flower touched his cold hand
As he slowly walked by
Weeping willows would cry for joy, joy
Feels so good
Feels so good, it’s frightening

I have been more happy & thankful than usual this year for Summer! All four seasons are beautiful and I love to stop & appreciate the beauty of each one. But I must admit that often during Summer, I find myself dreaming of Fall & Winter wanting it to hurry up and get here. This year though, I havent had those thoughts. Maybe I’m getting better with my mindfulness lifestyle or maybe I’m just loving Summer more. Or maybe a lil bit of both?! 🦋🐌🐜🐝🐞🕷🌸🌻🌞☀️

Anyway, I have been really feelin’ those Summer vibes & loving it! I’m not waiting for Summer to be over this year though I won’t mind when it is. Every season is lovely and each one brings out the beauty of the others more. Living in a place where all four are different, is a gift!

Also, I havent been on any fun vacations this Summer and very likely, I wont be. I have never been the biggest fan of going on vacations but wouldnt mind going on one. I dont have money usually and no one to go with. A girl can go on vacation alone and still have fun but I’m an extrovert and prefer doing things like that with others. I love my own company but still love the idea of hanging out with people.

My point is that we don’t need vacations or even staycations with bbqs and friend/family activities(though that is amazing!!) to channel those summer vibes and make some of our best memories ever!

I’m just soaking up the sunshine with my dogs (both my own and those im a nanny for) and loving the beauty all around me! I love that it’s July and even during the scortching heatwaves where it’s all humid, sticky, and disgusting, I love it! I walk all around the city (not in these shoes!) and bask in all the beauty it has to offer me.

When I dream of the future, I see me simply sitting by the Riverside with an iced latte(probably a mocha one!) and a book in my hand, preferably a Buddha book! And it thrills me!

I see posts on social media, often posted by moms of young children, about people feeling unhappy or low about the fact that their friends and others are doing amazing things like going to beaches and waterparks and other summery places to have fun while theyre at home doing nothing of that sort.

Hugs to anyone who feels this way!

Let’s remember we dont need extravagant things to be happy! We can be happy in our own back yard or living room or front porch. Some of my most cherished memories and best days are simple, uneventful ones with just myself, a cup of tea, and a thrilling book or movie!

Best Days ❤ (An old blog post of mine about how any ole day can be the absolute best)

So here is a reminder to make the best of where we are now whether it’s the best season (in nature or in life) or a not so pleasant one to us. We are HERE! Let’s love it & bloom where we’re planted. This is my baby right here. She always remembers to stop and appreciate the simple joys of life like smelling the flowers and rolling around in the grass and snow. She was a shelter dog for a long while then she found the perfect loving furever home with her sweet mommies! I am her nanny!😍 Best job ever!!

There is an abundance of beauty & joy all around, right here, right now.

Here are just some of the pictures I have that capture the Summer luvin’ in each day!

Much love & light to you,

Xoxo Kim

My dog, Boobie❤

My dog, Boobie, five years ago today!! Tomorrow will be the second anniversary of her death. She was an old girl. While I am sad & grieving, I know the most important thing is that she lived. She had a loving furever home with my family for nearly 14 years. She even has two puppies who my family kept! A boy & a girl who are almost four years old(this month!). Every year on mother’s day, Boobie’s birthday, and the anniversary that she came to live with us, we buy her puppies a special treat to honor her. We used to buy her special gifts and now it’s a gift to be able to celebrate her by giving her pups something extra! How sweet! We also have Boobie’s baby daddy. Lol He’s a little pomeranian and so cute! What a sweet little family.

“You can shed tears that she is gone
or you can smile because she has lived.

You can close your eyes and pray that she’ll come back
or you can open your eyes and see all she’s left.

Your heart can be empty because you can’t see her
or you can be full of the love you shared.

You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember her and only that she’s gone
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.

You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back
or you can do what she’d want:
smile, open your eyes, love, and go on.”❤

~Hugs~

Much love & light, always,

Xoxo Kim

Fun in the sun🌞😍

Fun day in the park recently with this sweet girl!!😍❤ She loves rolling around in grass, snow, sand, and whatever else is fun to roll in!😂🤣 Isn’t she just the cutest?! I love her!!!❤ She is so adorable & funny & loving. And very youthful like a lil pup!🐶🐕

I’m her nanny but I love her like my own!💜

Dogs are the best!!

I hope this adorable, short video brings a little bit of sunshine to your day!🌞

Much love & light, always!

Xoxo Kim 💛

So, so thankful!!!❤

Best news ever!! This lil baby was found alive & well and is now back with his family! I’m just posting this to express my gratitude that he was found alive, not hurt, and is back home. There are dogs who aren’t so lucky. He lives right where I do. I never met him or heard of him til he got lost. Since he was found and is back home, I blocked out the phone number in case they don’t want their number online now. That’s what that weird thing is where it says to call. Lol Instead of blurring it, it added letters or something. I kept hoping and hoping he would be found alive & returned home. I’m filled with deep gratitude that that’s the reality. The fact that he was running towards the highway concerned me. He is a four year old Boston Terrier. Look at that adorable face!! How sweet!! I thought he was a French Bulldog! I’m usually good at identifying dog breeds but I get Frenchies & Bostons mixed up a lot. Also, im not sure why they refer to their own dog as an “it.”

???

But he’s back home!!😍

Have any good news to share?? Let me know!! I love to celebrate the goodness all around!❤

(P.s. let’s remember to check leashes, collars, harnesses, doors…and make sure they are secure! We don’t want those babies getting away!)

Xoxo Kim